Fo those who read my tumblr, prolly would get an idea of whatever happened. But nonetheless, 2 weeks have passed. And I was thinking, why not write it down. It was a beautiful memory after all. :)
March 2008
We met during one of the nights out, through a great friend of mine. He was the very cool and confident guy that sat opposite me @ Homeclub. We played drinking games and danced. Had supper after and I didnt really think bout anything further as I had a screwed relationship fo 2 and a half years. We added each other in Friendster/Facebook and xchanged emails, chatted till wee hours in MSN and met @ Zouk to party with his friends. We went out on dates, and the very first date is still very vivid in my mind. Had dinns @ Sushi Tei, and he ended the date with a surprise ride on cable car @ Harborfront. That was when we had our first kiss, and soon after, we became an item. :)
The first few months were pretty tough to get by as he was still in NS and I was feeling very insecure from where I came from in my previous relationship. He never fail to make me feel better bout myself and his views on the relationship. After bout 3 months of being together, I knew, he could be the man I could rely on, might not be forever, but at least a boyfriend that I know I would be happy with.
We only get to meet up during weekends and we spent our time shopping fo his groceries in Cold Storage fo camp, meet up fo movies, chilling at his/my house, swimming, cycling and practically nothing very interesting. But it was the company, him being next to me just makes me smile and feeling secure and wanted. I remember, we were always arguing bout what I wear, and the clubs I go to etc. But later after, we seem to come to a very open minded relationship.
He is a very mature guy to start off with. We never leave our arguments just hanging around and not solve them with kisses or "I'm sorry". He would always ignore me during our quarrels and contact me when he's calm down and with words to solve things. He was always there fo me when I was down, and never would I forget the happy moments that we shared together.
All the imitations that we imitated each other's voice/reactions, the fun in bed with wrestling and tickles, the times he piggy back me, the days he force me with meals to complete, or even forcing me to finish the whole course of my medication. Sending me to hospital to get admitted, sending my family everywhere during CNY. His tradition and addiction to Luo Hei during CNY, and he would never fail to buy a medium one to my place. The drunk nights where I have to take care of him, the sleepless nights he had and still made time to accompany me but it ended off with sleep talks coming out from his mouth. All the singing sessions in the car, the way he stretches his arms out to me when he have to stop abruptly. So many other things!
We made plans together, plans that sometimes were too far to even fulfill. We don't use the word "break up" to solve things, we were very close to my family. My family always loved his company during dinns or just norm visitings.
Octorber 2009
We had a break up due to some mistakes in the relationship. It was painful, too painful to even describe in words. But we patch things up in Jan 2010 hoping to make the relationship a better one. And it did, the days we had were beautiful. He made efforts to make everything better. Gave me surprises that he don't usually does. We even went to Batam to celebrate our 2nd Anniversary on 20 March 2010. Had photoshoot taken, everything felt really happy and beautiful.
But at the end of every day, I would always question myself bout everything. Despite his love fo me, I know he's still a guy who wanna accompany his friends rather than to have his usual weekdays nights with me. And I was hoping more from him, like knowing how to prioritise his time more than just meeting up with me once a week and every other small little things. I figured that, if fun and friends are the things he wanted more than me, then maybe I should just let him go.
We talked and argued, but we came to a point to end things off. Maybe we're just not right fo each other at a time like this. But at the end of the day, I'm really glad to have my 2years being with him. He allowed me to grow up, to see things clearly. And this time round, I need to love myself than to give in to the ones I love.
And Dex, I'm really glad you agreed nobly to my decision and fo us to stay as friends. Its hard, to let go of someone I love knowing that things wouldn't be right this time. We're still young, and we once had it all. So thank you, my love.
**The above pictures were from the photoshoot, I just remembered I didnt upload them here to share. Haha. But yeah, there, my love story fo 2 years. :)
