I'm Growing Up?

Goodness! Why do I feel that blogger sucks now?!
They kept having problems, like almost everyday?!
And I have to use other means to actually update this site.
Blogger, please, do something bout it.

Alright, its Saturday like finally!
I've been missing my old days where I can sleep till 4pm. LOL.
But good thing is, I'm having a healthier lifestyle now!
Sleeping early, (at least earlier than usual).. Waking up early in the morning!

And I was so exhausted today. :/
Baby fetched me home and I waited fo a photographer to come fetch me to this morning's shoot location.
Had a photoshoot organised by Candleghost and he's a really nice person!
I cant wait to see today's pictures though. Haha!

I've got a few from last Saturday's shoot.

Credits: Lunas.




BTW. I'm so mad at my school.
I had to remodule one of my modules, and I've asked fo night classes.
The fact that I'm working, I cant possibly attend classes in the day.
And fuck my school fo giving me the afternoon classes despite the fact that I've asked fo night classes.
Fuck their management, they're honestly pissing me off.

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Last night I went over to Baby's place to have a night over, and gosh,
I missed having to spend time with Baby over the night.
Simply doing nothing but just cuddle and talk.
I'm having more faith than the past in this relationship of mine..
Many things have happened in this week, but Baby's way of handling situations really made me more assured.
He's changed, changed in a sense that he really do see me as a girl he really wants.
I'm confident of that now, but I wouldnt wanna say much fo the future,
as I've learnt to just enjoy and live as each day is given to me with him in my life.

I'm really thankful that I can have him here with me,
and honestly, we've really been through a lot together.
In one month's time, it would be our 1.5 anniversary.
Holy, time sure pass really fast and sweet.

This relationship has also made me more mature in a sense in handling matters.
Yes, I do have my whiny and bitchy days when my attitude is really off.
But if there werent Baby, I really don't know how I would handle those issues that surfaced.

At the end of the day, credits were definitely given to the both parties.
It takes two to Tango, and two to be in a relationship.
Without me nor Baby, would we've come so far? I doubt so.

Colleagues asked, "Is he the one you wanna get married to?"
I know its early to even decide. But deep down..
As cheesy or mushy as it may sound, I would really wanna tie the knots with him.
That is, if we can really make things work, like how we're doing it now, in the future.

To me, marriage is still another 6 years down the road, a long way to go.
I would first wanna give my mum a better life.
Being able to have a stable income and also do my Degree in years to come.
My life's still not as perfect as its really complicated with the current situations that I'm facing.
Yes, my parents are going through a divorce now.
As much as I love both my parents, but selfishly, my priority is my Mum.

She has really gone through so much fo brother and me.
I need time to make life better fo my family, both Mum & Brother.
So marriage and starting a family of my own should really wait till things are all better.

How silly of me speaking of starting my own family when I'm only 19 ain't it?
But honestly, I've seen so much, but I know its not everything that I should in my life.
I have to be really strong despite the fact that at times, I am weak.
Ask me if I can live without either mum, brother or even Baby?
Answer is, I really cant, I cant even imagine how life would be.

Of course there're other factors like friends who made me stronger..
And I do appreciate them even if I don't usually show or whatever.

To end off this post (after the whole chunk I've wrote.. LOL)
I really love everybody I mentioned in this post, be it family, friends and my boyfriend.
And I really really do appreciate everything that they have done fo me. :)
I LOVE YOU GUYS. (you should know who you are, don't need to mention names.)

Credits: Lunas


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