I'm feeling really restless now.
Maybe partially due to my health. Cos my tummy doesn't really wanna accept food.
Whatever that went into my mouth is YUCK.
I guess I'm feeling all weak and useless now.
Its more like my heart is feeling that way than me using that previous sentence to describe my health.
I've been forcing myself to sleep as early as 8pm yesterday, but cant help to be worried bout my other half.
Yeah. I've already feel he's already part of me and thinking of not having him in my life seems so.. not complete?
I'm worried. Like very worried bout everything thats happening.
Sad thing is, guys dont normally likes to pour out things.
But you know, sometimes, I wish there's at least something that I can do to make him better in some ways?
And I feel xtremely weak, weaker than my health, that there's not much I can do.
I feel really stuck and lost at some moment, knowing that the other is still upset.
Giving the other some space to chill, yeah. I understand that.
But doesnt it makes you feel hopeless bout the whole scene when you know not one thing that you'r doing can make life spark a little more?
It hurts. It sucks. and it seems so heavy that I cant help but to give a big sigh to it.
I think I'm really useless...